29th Birthday
I don't really remember what I did to celebrate this particular birthday. I was still living in my house in the university area. I was working for Campus Outreach. I was considering what would be coming next after my time on staff with Campus Outreach. I'll include a few excerpts from my journal from entries around the time of this birthday.
- Nov. 5, 2007 "I have dreams & desires but feel sad about what I'm leaving. Writing that seems to make it more clear that I'm thinking more about moving on than staying. I'm pretty sure that if there was a job offer in NYC, I would take it. Lord, thank you for dreams, for giving me hope. Give me direction & provide for all the little details that can weigh on my heart. I can boldly & honestly say that I've never been this scared in my life. I feel completely alone. I keep hoping God will just give me clear direction."
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| About three weeks before my 29th birthday. Michele & Keith's wedding |
- Nov. 8, 2007 "Have Tracy call me today. Help me be patient about NYC. Give me an offer to fully consider. You are so good to me. Move quickly, Lord. I love you I feel so honored to be your daughter."
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| A few weeks after my 29th bday Last Campus Outreach Staff Picture |
- Nov. 12, 2007 "Jesus, you are with me. Do it again. Give me a team like this again. Provide for me. You know where you want me. I don't. Show me clearly. I want to be obedient. Give me ears to hear your voice. I so terribly want to be married but not at the cost of laboring, seeing the world, living in a place of enrichment. Lord, I feel very scared but also so excited about what you are doing in me & through me. Move in me."
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| Three days before my 29th bday Crystal Laws Eagles' wedding |
- Dec. 3, 2007 "God, will you use my life over & over again in the lives of women? Now the honor of standing in gap for women that don't know you or know little about you. I want this more than anything. Don't let me forget this. You are what I need. You do satisfy even when I think I need other things. Show me again that you will meet my needs. I love you but I'm scared." Ezekiel 22:30
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